Hmmm, I thought the results ( from the whole 4 of us...!) were pretty interesting on this poll. Especially given my own feelings on whether I am at peace in a spiritual sense at the moment... so thought I would also start this thread for comments on peace.....
thoughts anyone?
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I use to get frustrated that I didnt feel "at peace with 'where I was at' spiritually?" and was always trying to figure out why and wanting to fix it. Then I realised that its in the moment that i am completely at Peace that i will stop searching for greater depths to who our God and Spirit are. It is my frustration or maybe a better word would be stiring of my spirit that constant little niggle that makes me interested to discover more of the truth and love that is there for me to know. I realised that its actually a blessing to not be completely at peace although i still feel peace just not entirely if that makes sense.
I used to constantly struggle with not being at peace, not feeling good enough for God, not praying enough, not being spiritual enough etc etc. I was living in a cycle of not feeling good enough and then God reminding me that he loved me, so I felt better but then defaulting back into self condemnation only days or weeks later.
A few months ago, I identified that this was coming from a feeling of not being unconditionally accepted by God. Hence my feelings of needing to earn my worth with him. I identified that for some reason I had lived with feeling 'not good enough' for many years. I chose to stop believing this lie and it was like, once the lie had gone, God could put the truth in. Since then, I have felt a lot more peace with where I am at spiritually because I know that regardless of what I am doing, I am accepted for just being.
This doesn't mean I don't want to keep developing spiritually but it has taken the striving out of the equation.
PS. And therefore with less striving and worry, I feel much greater peace.
I feel peace. My peace comes from a confidence that God is in control of everything... there is none else besides Him. He sustains all things and allows the good and the bad - even the bad has a role in His purposes and I would suggest even comes from Him (??). My peace is outside my own feelings (truely a peace that passes my understanding). I trust that God is bigger than me and will lead me down the right path eventually even if that means crossing many confusing and/or frustrating hurdles. I have been questioning a lot in christianity/spirituality lately and often don't know what I believe but that peace doesn't leave me because I believe that if my intention is to know God than it doesn't matter if I don't understand why or how.
I said I wasn't at peace with where I am at spiritually, but have since been reading a devotional based on the Psalms and our relationship with God and that has lead to a lot more thinking, questioning and praying, and even some analysing - yep, thats not like me! Reading this blog has been great too.
So, my conclusion is that I'm happy with where I'm at because I'm actually striving for a better relationship with God. As to whether I'm at peace with where I'm at, I'd have to say, yeah, all is good, God is good!
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